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Blogs > excited_4_now > Sexy is the new sexy

I'm not ready for the changes  

excited_4_now 53F
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8/4/2014 9:46 pm
I'm not ready for the changes

Exactly one month ago, I sat in a chair listening to a doctor tell him "it's bad, not much time left" and I just stared at him because I couldn't really process what was happening..
As the weeks went on and I saw the changes, I have come to terms with what is happening or at least I thought I did..

I guess I took for granted that the last few weeks have been fairly uneventful and got used to it until tonight when I noticed something that was different and an alarm went off.. I talked to the nurse about it and she explained this is a sign and that I should get used to these signs and changes, that his time is coming.. Well you want to know what?? I can't get fucking used to it and I don't want to see anymore fucking signs!!!

It's the selfishness in me, I'm not ready for this at all, I don't feel strong enough and when I see these changes I want to fucking scream....

As I left the hospital late tonight, I sat in my car and prayed, I'm not ready to say good bye, he always give's into my selfishness... Can he give in just one more time??

My heart is so heavy I can barely breathe, this is by far the hardest thing I have ever experienced....
If it was good, its great but if it was bad then you call that experience

E-4-N


ironman2769 58M  
12877 posts
8/5/2014 2:45 am

 I hope that after a good night's sleep you are able to have digested where this road leads to......take it slowly......hugs...
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oldirtybacchus 103M
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8/5/2014 11:23 pm

 So sorry the both of you are faced with that!
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spudsy1000 50M
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8/21/2014 10:54 am

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