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Let's Bring in the New Year!
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Let's Bring in the New Year! When I first got on this site ages ago, I was a busy single parent with little time for dating. So this seemed like a logical choice because, at the time, they had monthly meet n greets locally, and it was a fun way to meet guys I'd normally not come into contact with. Since my usual grind was work, home, store and more work! lol...I made some really great friends, some are still with me today...but never really quite met that guy that made me "float". Then, after I found out I had my cancer, it really became pointless to be on at least imo. After all, I was dying! What little time I had left should be spent with my , and how could you even ask someone to walk through that nightmare with you? I often joke about how I was lucky I was already single when I got the news, saved me the pain of being sick and watching him walk out the door! After all, you can understand, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. Then my six month sentence turned into a year, and that year turned into several. After a phenomenal survival of 8 years, (and if you check the statistics, I truly am a miracle Living Dead Girl! lol) I thought, "What the Hell! If I'm going to live, I might as well have a full life, which includes sex and love and all those things I'd forgotten about. Btw, I'm a Stage 4 Colon Cancer survivor, a natural redhead and a lefty! Beat those odds!  I I'd stopped having sex when my was 5-6, because I just couldn't find a happy medium between someone that wanted to stick around, and someone I wanted to keep! And I managed just fine. I had the occasional bout of loneliness, when I wondered if my choice was right, but all in all I'd say it was ok. Needless to say, this past year I met a person that for whatever reason, (I'm still trying to figure that one out!) lit a roaring fire in me that I had smothered for years! Try as I may, I wanted nothing more than to be around him, talk to him, touch him. And of course, he was totally unavailable to me! Destiny certainly has a sense of humour! And for many reasons he will never be available to me, pretty much unless the earth and heavens move, so we remain good friends, and I admire from afar. But this also gave me the desire to have someone in my life again, which I really couldn't have cared less about up until this point. And then I met this crazy, silly, smiling sexy seductive Latino chef on here! And we hit it off, and I had the best most loving caring passionate totally mind blowing sex possible! It was so much fun while it lasted! But I guess some things are more kickstarters than long term propositions, and he tired of me and moved on. It is what it is, and I deal with it, but it helped to remind me of what I don't want my next relationship to be, and gave me some good things that I do want it to be. Clarification is always nice. You can't really find what you want, till you know what you want. I want majick pure and simple. I want to be irresistably drawn to you, and you to feel the same. I want whatever time we have together to be so connective, that it spreads out from us and touches anyone near us. I want to be at peace in your arms, to make you feel as wonderful as you make me feel. I want a song or a scent to bring my face to your mind, so you text me with a smilie or a "Hi!" just so I know you're thinking about me. I want you to be the hot sauce to my ketchup, the salty to my sweet, I want us to be enamoured of each other. And I want you to be my friend. So that no matter if I'm a mess, or I haven't picked up around the house, we can still spend time together cuz I don't need to impress you or be fake. I want to be able to talk to you for hours on end about anything, or lie quietly with you saying nothing, either is fine cuz we match. Heart and Soul, rather than Soulmates if you can understand the difference. Either way, I hope I find you this year. I'll try to remember that each "relationship" I end up in that doesn't work out, is a stepping stone to you. and that hopefully our paths will cross sooner than later. The path to your heart is not always clear, but I know it'll be worth it in the end. Happy New Year my love, wherever you are, who knows? You might be reading this soon....Hugs n Kisses n Peace Halo
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It IS very like magick when it happens, isn't it? It's nearly unexplainable, and is very much a matter of faith. Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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Good morning. Yes, destiny certainly does have a sense of humor. A very strange one at that. 
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You appear to be a beautiful personnot only on the outside but truly on the inside , I know what you are saying about having your breath taken away, Sarah Mclachlan sings about it , I wish you the best and hope you get everything you wish for..
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