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Growing up Kelly
 
I've been wallowing in my own confused And insecure delusions
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Is sex that important?
Posted:Nov 16, 2014 8:22 pm
Last Updated:Nov 17, 2014 10:32 pm
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My past relationships have started from sex. I like test driving before I purchase. I have always based staying with someone on the sex. The was the past. I have been trying to be doing something different because it didn't work for me in the past. I am just not sure how well it is working for me now.
The current guy is everything women want. Good looking, cooks, picks up the dry cleaning, takes the out when I work too late, is nice to my family, super awesome. Just not that into sex. At first I thought it was me. I thought he was just not that into me but then I realized he just isn't into sex.
I thought us both traveling for work would be good, we would have all this built up energy and want to fuck like rabbits. Nope. He wants to cuddle.
I have tried blow jobs-don't work. I tried stripping- He got excited, was able to have sex for a few minutes then lost it.
So maybe I should give up on sex.
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Back for now
Posted:Nov 15, 2014 12:42 pm
Last Updated:Nov 16, 2014 8:22 pm
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I am back but only to read and write in the blogs. The last few months have been very interesting for sure.
Still traveling almost every week for work, next week will take me to Fairbanks and then I will be home until the first week of December. That trip will cap out 2014 allowing me to spend the rest of the year with my family here in Alaska.
Since I just signed back in I have not had a chance to review the post of others and see what is happening in the lives. I have missed reading the happenings of my "friends" here.
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I got one in paper
Posted:Jun 30, 2014 10:45 pm
Last Updated:Jul 2, 2014 8:28 pm
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I went to the local book store and bought a journal. While I am going to stop blogging here I am not going to stop writing. I notice the last couple of years I have been cautious with what I share. I miss being open and really putting it out there. I don't need people to follow me or to comment because it's not about them. It's about me. What I am experiencing at that moment in time. I can write something and minutes later feel 100% different about it.
I am looking forward to closing this off; ready for the next chapter so to say. I am stepping outside of my comfort zone and looking for something different.
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Closing it down
Posted:Jun 21, 2014 12:36 pm
Last Updated:Jun 30, 2014 3:32 pm
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I have been on this site long enough. I have met awesome people, some not so awesome people and just strange people. Before I purge something I ask myself if I have gotten use out of it in the last six months. Not with this site. Other maybe one or two of the blogs I follow I have grown annoyed and bored with the others just as I am sure people have grown bored and annoyed of me. I don't write as freely as I used to because as we know, Alaska is a huge state, small community.
I really do want to find a loving, lasting and mutual relationship. Can it be found here? I am sure it has happened but I am positive it will not for me.
I think my membership ends at the end of the month and I will then delete it all. Can't say it's been fun but it has been interesting.
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Here's a question for you
Posted:Jun 16, 2014 9:31 pm
Last Updated:Jun 17, 2014 7:37 am
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I had mom time on Saturday and we had a pretty deep discussion about my current state of singleness. We were talking about a man I fell for that met all but three items on my impossible list of what my Mr. Perfect must be.
The one that was a huge discussion was the sexual compatibility. We are not sexually on the same wave length. Now keep in mind this guy and I are no longer together but I have wondered many times if he said he was ready; would I say yes?
Mom says she thinks it's a deal breaker because I would eventually look elsewhere for the sexual chemistry. WHOA! My mom said I would cheat. I would like to think that would not be the case however the sexual aspect is in the top five must haves.
If you met a person that on every level met your dream person except the sex would you adapt? Mind you I am asking those that are want monogamous relationships.
Maybe you are in a relationship like this. What is your experience? If you are a sex everyday kind of person and your partner is a sex 2 times a week and on weekends is that okay? What if they did not give oral sex? Ever. What if they only wanted sex in the morning and you're an anytime kinda person?
Is sex really a reason to pass on someone that is otherwise perfect for you?
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we are all replaceable
Posted:Jun 15, 2014 7:21 pm
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2014 7:52 pm
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I am trying to grasp this. The word replaceable was defined for me a few days ago and I have been wallowing in my reality of it. I have worked my butt off to be where I am but when the ambulance took me away last week I learned it did not matter. The show goes on.

Seems to be a pattern of mine to put so much energy into things that will not make a difference. I need to stop doing that. I want to be a priority. To me.
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Morning oddieties
Posted:Jun 14, 2014 1:34 pm
Last Updated:Jun 14, 2014 6:40 pm
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I am feeling very restless today. I stayed in bed most of yesterday per doctor's orders. I watched shows on ntflix and read a book.
I was supposed to go to a drag show last night with a group of friends since it is PRIDE weekend; I didn't go. My friend J lost her mind for a minute. I wrote about her around this time last year. We had a very brief fling and I told her it could not be more because I didn't want more. The last year has been good as far as the friendship goes. The last month has been strange, I started getting a weird vibe from her and last night was the big reveal. She sent me very long text messages telling me she knows I don't feel the same for her and she really needs to stop punishing herself and being around me is not good for her. She went on. And on about this. I didn't know what to say. Was I getting an other dumping by text? Apparently. By a friend.
Then I get a call from her this morning that she is 5 minutes away and on her way over, please have coffee. A very hungover and tired looking J shows up, drinks coffee, no mention of the texts from last night and off she went to the next PRIDE event.
So that was interesting.
How was your morning?
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Adventures of Kelly
Posted:Jun 13, 2014 2:52 pm
Last Updated:Jun 13, 2014 8:07 pm
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This last week has been quite the adventure for me. I started with Friday in Ketchikan, AK. I had not been before and while I think it is beautiful, I think Juneau is better. The hiking was great, the view from the apartment was amazing. I saw 3 black bear, a Sitka Black Tail deer and lots of tourists.
Monday had me flying to Juneau for work, Tuesday back in Anchorage and Wednesday morning I headed for Fairbanks for what was supposed to be 9 hours of meetings. Instead I got to experience the hospitality of the Fairbanks hospital after I collapsed and had a ride in an ambulance. Apparently I had a severe case of vertigo, exhaustion and dehydration. Yay me!
I am now home with a forced day off. I have been avoiding the work computer and my phone email.
The odd part for me is realizing how replaceable we are when it comes to work. I had co-workers there and while I know I have not made friends there I was surprised when I had texts from the people there that went ahead and caught their flights out.
I am not sure I would I have left a co-worker in a city after an emergency situation. There was no call made to my , there was nothing. Then they asked me upon my release if I would be back at work today.
So maybe this is not for me. Was this my wake up call about my life?
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Before I go
Posted:Jun 5, 2014 9:24 pm
Last Updated:Jun 9, 2014 9:40 am
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I am getting on an airplane tomorrow. There will be many stops however I am not leaving the state. Something totally wrong with this. Once I land and respond to messages that need to be responded to I am turning off my phone. I plan to disappear until Sunday night. At which time I will need to prepare for my meetings that begin Monday through Thursday.
I have been searching lately and I can't seem to locate what I am searching for. I have a list but it's not like I can walk in a store and make a purchase; life would be just too easy. I am hoping that I can answer my own question.
I have been halfassed following blogs and I apologize about that. Kinda hard to get caught up in other people's lives when I have no clue what is happening in my own.
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Maybe a housewife?
Posted:May 28, 2014 7:14 pm
Last Updated:May 29, 2014 12:28 am
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I am starting to wonder if this career woman thing is the right thing for me. Where can I post a resume to be a housewife? Is there a website for that? Interviews? Benefits with low deductible health plans?
The last few months have seriously sucked and last week and this week is not looking better. I decided to pack it up today when I received an IM from a peer asking if I meant to send that email to the . What email? The one where you set up the meeting with the forwarded email with the pissed off employees and attachments? OH FUCK MY LIFE! No, of course I did not mean to include the damn ! He just happens to have the same initial as someone I did mean to send to and I was multitasking and trying to complete a project and trying to fix a problem and trying and trying. Fuck it I give up.
I tried to recall the message but I did not get a success or fail from his. So who knows.
I have had a headache for 3 days now; I feel like my shoulders are in my ears.
What are the qualifications of a housewife?
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Not as planned but okay.
Posted:May 26, 2014 11:16 am
Last Updated:May 26, 2014 12:26 pm
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My weekend was not a total waste but it was not what I wanted or planned. I had planned to go to Homer and kayak with a group of friends, because of the fire we decided to reschedule for next month.
I had a horrible day at work on Friday and ended up getting shit faced drunk. Bad idea. I don't like doing that, is not my usual way of dealing with things and I hate not being in control. Plus I always do something I regret; Friday was not an exception. Saturday was a waste of a day because of the crap hangover and staying in bed. Sunday was better; I went out to a friend's place and just relaxed. Lazed around in the sun, went for a walk to the water, played with the dog, had dinner cooked for me, sat in the hut tub and watched a movie.
This morning I am going to get caught up on work and maybe do some shopping. There has to be sales out there right?
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Three day weekend?
Posted:May 19, 2014 9:11 pm
Last Updated:May 20, 2014 5:56 pm
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Yes, please.
I have my first long weekend since before the start of the year and I need to figure out what to do. I have yet to try sea kayaking and there is a place in Seward that has rentals and small cabins. It is looking like a contender. Most of my friends are working or have other plans so why not?
I suppose I should be looking to see if there is availability.
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It shouldn't be this hard!
Posted:May 18, 2014 11:00 pm
Last Updated:May 26, 2014 7:43 pm
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Seriously you'd think this chick would have gotten a hit by now. Nope.

Because I can I am going to post exactly what I want-
I want you to be single; not looking for multiple partners.
I want you to be affectionate; cuddle, kiss, gentle, rough when appropriate.
I want you to be orally gifted; verbal, cunnilingus and kissing.
I want you to be able to have sex more than once a week; daily preferred.
I want you to be active; go out and be able to hike-five miles or more at a time-with me.
I want you to be attractive to me-I am attracted to the Alaskan guy look; beards are fine but no grizzly Adams.
I want you to be open to POSSIBLY moving beyond FWB. This means you are not a complete emotional retard.
I want you to want me.
Age 29-47

What you get- Attractive woman with a career. Highly sexual. Respectful. Witty. Active. Versatile. Great cook. Great smile. Great boobs.

I absolutely will not respond to emails without a photo or one line responses. Attraction and chemistry is the start to a situation like this.
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