RAINBOW CRAYONS (I wrote this 12/31/01)
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Posted:Feb 26, 2009 9:38 am
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My name is Cadillac BLACK & I am a 25-year-old black male crayon. I have been around a lot of colors in my day. Sex is like having two different colors coming together to create a beautiful picture. I have painted several pictures in my 11 years of creating sexual works of ART. Each person is like a color & that color represents your personality, character, and emotional tone. Each color is more than just light reflecting in your eyes; colors possess magical powers. Colors have sound which in turn is transformed into music, which reflects the color of the soundtrack to our lives. So color sets the tone for our daily existence. You can see that sex, music, & colors are all directly & indirectly related to each other. Therefore, sex is creating masterpieces of ART by joining the colors of our spirit with the music of our mind through the touch of our bodies.
My sexuality developed at a very early age, mentally more than physically. I remember my sexual childhood exactly. I knew the difference between girls & boys early on. I knew I was a boy & I knew boys were more dominant than girls, didn’t nobody tell me that I just knew instinctively. I was happy as a , I never felt out of place as being a boy. I loved being a boy, just to get dirty & play hard was all I needed. I never really notice real girls until I was in 2nd grade. I knew about women at an early age because I was watching the Playboy Channel regularly before I was 5-years-old. I even was once told my mother when she caught me one time that she don’t need to be watching that, this was around 4. I was aware of parental sexuality early to. I used to sleep with my mother until I was about 5-6, so this is where I would watch Playboy when she was sleep. My father didn’t stay with us, but he would come over & they would do they thing when I was sleep in the same bed. I would wake up sometimes & hear them but would not turn around and look. I just knew that I shouldn’t be watching this. I only ever looked one time & that was all I needed was one time to know that sex something for me later in LIFE. I didn’t understand the noises & moans until further Playboy research was achieved. I knew the pain I was witnessing was not all bad. Pain is a sound that you can pick up on. If you scream in pain or in pleasure, they have to different sounds. When you hear them sounds, you know what they are & will never forget them. We never, to this day, really talk openly about sex. We sort of had like common sense sex education, when you are old enough to do it you will know how to. This wasn’t something that was said actually word for word but that is the vibe I got. We all have caught other family members in compromising situations (in the nude), but we never made a big deal out of those things. If it happened we’d move on just as fast as it happened. I never took it any other way, no fantasies or nothing. There was always levels of affection in our house. All my sisters, uncles, & cousins had live in the house we live in today. They all had they little squeezes at the crib. So, I learned a lot from them indirectly about relationships. I have even caught a number of them having sex. That was some of the funniest moments ever witnessed by a . I can say I really learn about sex from Family, TV, & Books. The stuff I got from my friends was the same things I knew from TV. They really didn’t know nothing either. I learned a little more from a girl that was like a cousin to me. She had the 1st breast I licked & 1st pussy I touched. I learn a little of what girls want from her. Her name was Cousin Cardinal & we were about 6 at the time. I really didn’t know what I should listen to, so I went for it on my own. To this day I still read & listen to get true sound sex advice. When I got into the 2nd grade, that’s where my sex play really began @ the age of 7.
I was reading & in school @ the age of 3, so intellectually I was far beyond a lot of my age; but I still didn’t know what to do with a girl yet. From 2nd ‒ 5th grade, all I did with girls was talk on the phone, wrestle with @ school (especially in gym class or at school lock-ins), & see out with they parents. I used to love to play with my family’s friends’ every chance I got. We used to just feeling on each other & hump, nothing major. We really weren’t even kissing, I don’t think I got my 1st real kiss til I was 11 or 12 years old. We thought we were really doing something. I used to look at every sexually oriented piece of material I could find. I once found this magazine called “Let’s Get Fucking Around”. It was thick as hell, around 150+ pages of color scenes. It was filled with all straight men & straight/bi-sexual women. Everybody was of different races & they all were fucking. It was guy-girl, girl-girl, 2-on-1 (both ways), orgies, letters, & their even was a personals section. They had all types of ads in it. I was exposed to a lot as a . I used to watch all the porno flicks I could find in the house. Many of my relatives have stay in the same house I live in now. This is several different personalities living in & out of the same structure, the porno varied from soft to hardcore. This is made me think this is what everybody else was doing. I was like this is for me sex, but I didn’t know how to get the girls to have sex with me. I tried where I saw the most girls at & that was school. The porno help my mind be able to see what sex really was & how it was performed. I was also aware of male & female homosexuality. I saw women with women, but no men with men & I knew why. Women having sex with women is much more acceptable by society than men having sex with men. To me women are just being more feminine with another woman, where men are being feminine when they are with another man. Men are made to be masculine when they have sex & women are made to be feminine when they have sex. I do not believe in male homosexuality, but if that’s what you want to do; don’t bring it around me. I have never felt the close intimacy with a man that I feel with a woman. I know I was not born to be gay. I have wrestled with both girls & boys and I have never wanted to get closer to the boys. I want to make them quit, I wanted the girls to “give it up” (not the punany). I can see what would make a guy want a guy, he wants the guy to “give it up”. My father doesn’t like gays, I think I could work with some if I had to. I don’t see me socially chilling with any gay guys, gay girls are/and will always be one of my best friends. I have never had any homosexual experiences & I’m positive that I don’t want any in the future. Never have, neverwill. My mother wouldn't care if you were gay or not, long as you were a good person she would accept you. My parents are okay people, but they have never been really aware of sexuality. All they know is I like Girls, Girls, Girls, Girls, Girls I Do Adore, but they have no clue to the extent. When I found the porno, I would be so smooth wit it they didn’t even know I was there. Smooth & $neaky, I think that's where I get my Mack Game from.
6th, 7th, & 8th grades were our wonder years. We wonder what the fuck was happen to us, we were getting hornier every year with every new girl we’d see. My nuts were getting a little bigger, hair was growing a little thicker, & I was growing a little taller. I got glasses in the 6th, but I didn’t let that get into my mind that the glasses could stop me from scoring (I hadn’t even scored yet). I was a little chunky too, but I knew I could still get some girls. I don’t really know what made me think I could; even though I really didn’t have any like that; but I did. I think this was around the time I had my 1st wet dream, but I didn’t know what I had until a lot later down the line. All I know is I had a girl, we were doing it, & it felt like I had to pee, so I did. Woke up & I did something but it wasn’t pee. I had got sick before my 8th grade year & lost a lot of weight. I came back to school slimmer & thinking I was smoother, knowing this is my year to score; To my prevail, no ass. I did masturbate/jack-off for the 1st time when I was 13-years-old. I was watching a flick, my man in the flick was beating over this girl head. Next thing you know, BOOM, all over her face; I had seen this before, but this time was different. I decided to try to see if I could do that. I went to the bathroom, started fantasizing & jacking, 10-15min. later I felt something. I kept going, that nut shot out, I didn’t know what the hell that was, but it felt a little too good. I didn’t do that again for a couple of days. I had to control the urge, I didn’t want to get addicted to doing that shit everyday. So I decided to concentrate on the girls at school, because I was with them everyday.
I don’t remember my 1st kiss at all, that’s funny because I like to kiss some girls, sometimes. I do remember my 1st piece of pussy, her name was Candy Apple Red. I was 14-years-old, with some of my friends over his cousin’s house. His uncle got me my 1st shot from an older woman. I went in there, just got into & started pumping, 4min. later, I nutted and fell in LOVE with the FEELING! I never really had a girlfriend while I was in school either. I didn’t have my 1st girlfriend until I was 17 & her name was Snow Flake. I met her at this club called E-Z-Street. The 1st time I fucked her was in my room on my bed @ my house. I actually think I loved her for real.
By January 1, 1995, I only had sex with 6 people (Candy Apple Red, Grapefruit, Chocolate Cherry, Silver Tooth, Snow Flake, Green Eyed Bandit) & I was a 2nd year freshman in college. The 1st girl I banged @ UNCC was Lemon Crystal Light & she was a cutie. The girls I have sex with are my friends, I was never there man or nothing. We were intimate adults consenting to engage in sexual behavior. This became my game plan what have you, to be friends 1st then move on to being lovers. I never wanted to take pass that lovers level to girlfriend, because we didn’t always match up all the way down the line. I think I found my soulmate anyway, her name is Chocolate Chip Black & she is a black crayon too. I think she is my TWIN & she is my TRU 1st LOVE. I met her in Fall of 95, we didn’t get close until Spring of 97. I think I don’t need to do nothing but sow my royal oats & practice safe sex, until we get married. I really do LOVE her, because she knows me like no other person does. I haven’t seen her in 4 years, but I talk to her a lot. I still feel the same way about her the day I left. I think I love her more now than I did then. I don’t think no one can take her away from me except for us.
I have had in total 69 different sex partners as of Today 2001. The most memorable times are pretty fucking awesome. I had this one girl Ginger Tea, I had sex with her 2x in the same night. One time was from 6pm ‒ 8pm & again @ 10pm ‒ 6am, I busted 9 nuts (4 then 5) in that time frame; I made her cum multiple times, she was completely done after. I had this one girl name Baby Powder, we were doing it, she was on my lap & I was on my knees. I was pulling her to me, when I slipped out of her & she squirted cum across the room at me. That freaked me out a little, she said she ain’t never did that before. I made her do it every time since then too. One time me & a buddy had these two girls name Maple Syrup & Turquoise. They both wanted to bang him so, I got in the room & one girl was trying to hog so, I stepped up and took care of Turquoise then we switched & I put a cork in that Maple Syrup. I made Maple cry because I accidentally stuck my magic wand in her escape pod. One time me & 2 buddies had a girl named Hot Salsa, she did all of us at the same time; but I went 1st & I came 1st. The oldest women I ever had sex with was 38 when I was 21, her name was Grey Goose. I have had one nite stands, sex with strippers, sex with black & white girls, but I have never had the all-out orgy yet. I have had fat girls, skinny girls, cute girls, not-so-cute girls, cousins & aunts, a few , and yes I have had sex in cars. I like to keep the Mack Mentality when dealing with matters of the heart, because that’s the only way you can be safe. You have to always have solutions to any problem, you have to have more than 2 girls in your life at a time, you have to separate business/pleasure, and you have to be able to stop the bullshit before it develops.
This crayon has a lot more pictures to draw & a lot more colors to blend. Only thing I can do at this point in my sexual career is practice smart, safe, satisfying sex. Hopefully I can score with someone in this class, before we take the final. I recommend that everybody do one of these. It lets you really see where you came from & where you are going. Long Live the MAGIC COLOR of $EX!!! CREAMY WHITE O’s.....
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