THE NEW ME!!!
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Posted:Dec 8, 2007 1:46 am
Last Updated:Nov 21, 2008 1:03 am
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THE NEW YEAR WILL BE THE YEAR OF CAROLINE. NO MORE SADNESS. I HAVE GAINED A NEW LEASE ON LIFE. I WILL BE A GRANDMOTHER IN THE MIDDLE OF MAY, I AM SO PROUD. YES I WILL BE A YOUNG GRANDMOTHER BUT MY WILL HAVE GRADUATED FROM UGA WITH A DEGREE IN EDUCATION AND SHE GOT MARRIED SO WHY BE SAD.
I AM ALSO THE MOTHER OF THREE GREAT . REBEKAH WHO WILL BE 8 IN JANUARY, AND GARRY WHO IS 3. AND NOT TO FORGET MY OLDEST EMILY WHO WILL BE 20 IN JUNE. AND NOT TO FORGET ABOUT KOURTNEY CAROLINE MY LIL ANGEL.
THIS YEAR WILL BE THE YEAR CAROLINE IS HAPPY. I AM TIRED OF BEING SAD ALL THE TIME. ITS TIME FOR CAROLINE TO STOP WORRYING WHAT PEOPLE THINK. ITS TIME TO LIVE WITH A MORE POSITIVE OUTLOOK ON LIFE. I AM FAT AND SASSEY BUT THERE IS MORE TO ME THAN FAT AND IF YOU DONT SEE IT THEN SHAME ON YOU. I AM A GREAT PERSON, AND YOUR THE ONE MISSING OUT NOT ME BY GETTING TO KNOW ME.
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My lonely life as a bbw
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Posted:Aug 25, 2007 10:49 am
Last Updated:Nov 23, 2007 5:39 pm
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I am a 35 year old nurse. I am raising two small alone. I get lonely and upset at times, I am also losing my best friend who is my 19 year old . She is getting married next month to a great guy who is a hard worker and will make her a good husband and partner.
I get lonely sometimes because I see other woman happy and wonder why I cant be. I lost my ex to my bestfriend and she has since moved on and is getting married to someone else. Sometimes I wonder how it would be to be with someone that really loves me and who wont leave me and have someone that wont judge me either.
So I sit here thinking why am I so lonely maybe its because of the weight. Could be, Even though I have lost a lot of weight I still have bunches to lose still. Could it be that I am not nice I try and be nice to everyone. I dont know. Maybe I am not worth much to anyone but to my and that should be what counts but i dont know. Maybe I am not meant to be happy but meant to bring other happiness who knows. So I will just be contented to be unhappy and maybe happiness will find me and this can be updated.
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My LiL Christmas Angel
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Posted:Dec 22, 2006 5:48 am
Last Updated:Nov 7, 2007 10:43 am
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Today, I think of things in my life. I think about a little Angel named Kourtney Caroline, that I lost in a car accident when she was 9 months old. I think about how old she would be now, and how she would looked and I think about things that we would do.
I look at my other three , and see what a blessing they are too me. As I buy them gifts, I think about what I would be buying for her. I think about the last time I saw her laugh and smile, and I think about how she would do on Christmas opening her gifts. Her laughs and smiles.
As I go to the check out line, I see a little Christmas Angel and its funny it seems to be calling me to get it. The angel is very very pretty, and lights up. I think about my little angel in heaven and how she lite my life up.
I buy this angel and put it at my tree, I plan to light the angel up on christmas day, the same way as Kourtney lite my life up with her love and smiles and laughs. I light this angel up in Remembrance of her and to let everyone know that I have a real little christmas angel in my life.
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Kourtney Caroline Dill was killed in a car accident in 97 when she was 9 months old. She maybe not be here now but she will never be forgotten, in the hearts of people who knew and loved her.
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Things that petels need.
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Posted:Dec 4, 2006 1:28 am
Last Updated:Nov 7, 2007 10:44 am
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Today I think about things that I really need in my life right now. Sure I have a great job, two great and a house and a van what else couple petels want.
I want a man who is for real and not a fake. I need a sentitive and caring one. One who understands my wants and needs. One who is accepted of me. And will look on the inside of me and not the outside. Someone that I can have romantic walks with and cuddle with a night by a open fire.
I know I always act happy but sometimes I cry, I need to feel wanted and loved , I need to know that I can share my life with someone. If I could only find one special person in my life I will be happy.
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Dont judge me
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Posted:Oct 26, 2006 4:24 pm
Last Updated:Dec 8, 2007 1:49 am
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Please dont judge me. This morning I was called a slut because I gave a baby up for adoption when I was 15. I gave this a great start with a mom and a dad who loved her as much as I did. I loved her so much that I did what I thought was right and now I know I made the best decision for her.
Please dont judge me because I am fat. No one knows me and looks can be decieving at times. I had a rough life and knows what I have been though so stop judging me. Unless you have walked in my footsteps dont judge me. I am a sweet person with a lot to give. I am a good mommie and a great nurse. And I am a caring person.
Please dont judge me for being me. You might miss out alot by not knowing me. As a friend as well as a lover. I am a giver not a taker. I will give and give and take and take but please dont abuse me if you dont like me then tell me but just dont take from me.
Myself stop judging yourself. You know that you are a kind and honest and hardworking. There will always be people out there that will judge you, but if they dont like you for the way you look or act then they are the one that is missing out and your not. And know DONT JUDGE because we arent the real judge. Some one alot greater is
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Thinking of my baby girl
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Posted:Oct 22, 2006 11:44 am
Last Updated:Nov 28, 2007 3:06 am
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To day is sunday and I feel so all alone. I know the holidays are coming and I really dread them, because I have a little angel in heaven that I miss so much. Just one more time I would love to hold her and tell her that I love her so much, She was buried before I got to say my good byes to her. Does she know the car acccident wasnt my fault and that I wished it had been me instead of her getting killed. Does she know that she has a sister and a brother. She will be apart of their lives like she as she is in my life. Does she know that no matter what ever happens that I love her and will love her until the day I get to see her again. These are questions that I will never know the answer, but I know in my heart she knows everything, and that one day when time is over I will be back with her. And she is my first born, and she wont never be forgotten.
Kourtney Caroline Dill
September 22, 1996-July 10, 1997
She will always be remember and
never forgotten.
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A BETTER PETEL
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Posted:Oct 20, 2006 7:07 am
Last Updated:Oct 4, 2007 2:02 pm
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As I am writing this I sit and think how could I make petels better and lot happier. I have the perfect live it would seem. I have two great and a great job and career why am I not happy?
I believe that god has someone that is meant for all of us, and I might have met him already and didnt know it until its too late. Maybe he is someone that I have been with before and didnt know he was the one until it was too late. Maybe he is sent from heaven to make petels happy. I dont know, I just hope to find him and to complete me, and to complete my family. And to live happy ever after
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BBW WISHING
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Posted:Oct 17, 2006 7:08 am
Last Updated:Nov 23, 2007 5:40 pm
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Today I sit here and listen and watch the rain. I think how it would be to be in someones arms and to know that they feel for me as I feel for them.
I think about how it would be to be with someone that wanted me for me and not what I bring to the table. I think about someone wanting me or that says that I am pretty and really means it instead of someone telling me this just to sleep with me.
I think about finding the person of my dreams and growing older and sitting back thinking how lucky I am to have them, and them feel the same way.
Is it meant to be for a bbw to be happy? I dont know, I will sit back and watch the rain and wish all my dreams to come true.
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