Hi everyone ... not sure what want to blog about but felt like posting even though have nothing worth posting lol guess my way of letting you all know I'm still alive and kicking lol I'm down but not out regardless what life throws my way until my number is up ...

Should be no surprise that I mainly talk about Alex since he's pretty much only person who matters to me and I'm so grateful and blessed he wants me to continue to be a big part of his life .... he is my everything and pretty sure the only reason I attempt to rejoin the living instead of just existing ... of course it's easier said than done ...

lol I'm not sure what I'm trying to say but maybe will make sense to someone ... which reminds me ... I was surprised to actually meet someone who has experienced many similar experiences/situations to what I have ... lol it's one of Joette's sisters of all people ... have to say it was idk nice to be able to talk to someone who truly can understand/relate to things that most people can't ...

anyway, Alex is now heading towards returning from deployment ... it's insane that took months to get to where he was supposed to end up and he's already backtracking towards where they are gathering everyone who will be returning to the US ... lol He sounded good, just so done with it all and just wants to get back home ... he has an idea of when that will be ... fingers crossed it works out and that he'll be home again soon ...

I was actually texting with several individuals offline from the site but while was fun it's become idk tedious/boring ... none have wanted to "talk" even though I gave them that option which I feel tells me alot lol ... so pretty sure all that texting is thing of the past lol up side is it gives me even more time to indulge/binge in my naughty e-books and Netflex lol ...

I' still struggling with insomnia - really messing up day/night schedule ... hopefully my visit to see mom/family will fix it ... pretty sure be exhausted from being busy everyday lol up side is I've gotten to read alot of my naughty e-books lol

I'll be going to visit mom/family end of August through at least till 9/8 - maybe one week longer if need to in order to reconnect with my brother and my niece while there ... think I'll be making more than a few trips to the casino lol mom has us going the Sunday I get there so she can play her free play and have lunch lol lol could say I'll be hitting the ground running from the start lol I will be constantly on the go, eating out alot, as well as playing yatzee/rummy every day when not out running lol and when I return to Johnstown there will be line dancing classes every thursday for 8 weeks and going to the Y at least once a week - Jo said she wants to join me for the class on Sunday afternoons ...

Well besides e-book binging to live in a fantasy world instead of this boring thing called life, I've been lurking in blogland and catching up on various bloggers I follow and checking out blogs I come across that interest me ... there are so many talented/creative bloggers ... I am grateful for being able to hang out there and post now and then without ridicule because I don't fit the norm lol appreciate those who have made me feel I'm welcome here ... thanks xo

Have a good week everyone ... and if life is being a bitch hang in there ... if life knocks you on your ass - get back up ...as long as we are breathing there is always hope, situations can change on a dime when least expected ... xo

Thank you to those of you who read/comment on my little blog posts xo

sorry about any typos or if I duplicate any items ie music or quote type of items